a reminder to be happy

Dress: H&M | Shoes: Guess | Bag: Nordstrom | Sunnies: Marc Jacobs
Lately, I've been going through a somewhat odd time in my life. It's silly because all things considered, I have it pretty darn good. And I know this. So sometimes, when I am emoting this strange and sad feeling, I have to remind myself how blessed I am and how others are so much happier with so much less. And that makes me feel ashamed. But, I suppose everyone goes through weird feelings every once in a while. Or maybe it is the fact that I'm turning 27 this year and eeeek, you guys, I am just not ready. The number makes me cringe, makes me want to run for the hills. Because the number is discretely yelling at me to get my life together, even though I am just now starting to feel like I am accomplishing great things. But every once in a while I get these little rainy clouds hovering over me that say I need to accomplish other things; things like settling down, having kids before I hit advanced maternal age, buying a house... But then another part of me wants to travel to South America to deliver babies, Africa to help with the HIV/AIDS population, live in Hawaii and San Francisco while being a pediatric nurse, then go back to school AGAIN... and I can't help but think if maybe I started planning too late?

It's really helped that when I went to nursing school, I met some incredible women my age who were on a similar path... not married yet, starting a new career, and most importantly they were happy! It was such a relief to know that I wasn't the only one in the world who wasn't settled. We had big plans for our future and we were working hard for it. These forever friends that I am so grateful to have made are all I need when I need a reminder that I'm actually doing quite well in womanhood. And gosh darn, when I start freaking out about 27, I can remember that it's nothing more than just twenty-sexy. Because that's what I'll be celebrating another year of. Why shouldn't women take over the world in their little black dress and high heels scrubs? It's always good to remember that it doesn't matter what your station in life is because you can always live life to the fullest. And in celebration for my current station, I'm breaking out the little black dress.

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